And so this is Christmas...

(she sings in best 80's pop icon voice), "and what have you done..." hmm, lets see, run round like a mad thing would sum it up quite nicely.

Yay for Christmas Eve Eve daycare this morning as I was able to frantically wrap the last of the pressies and stash them beneath beach towels in the back most part of the boot of the Porshe. And by Porshe I mean Audi A6 station wagon, and by Audi A6 station wagon I mean white, dusty, cob webby Toyota Camry circa 1997. (But dreams are free of course).

I'm now in the midst of washing those last few 'must have' clothes, you know, the favorite pirate t-shirt, the dinosaur pj's, the very cute but highly impractical girly dress for lil miss to wear Christmas day so she'll look way cute in the family Christmas day snap shot - and so what if it's covered in turkey & cranberry sauce by the time the Kodak moment takes place, at least I can say I tried.

And speaking of Kodak moments. A very proud mummy moment last night when I took the boy to meet the man in the jolly red suit himself. Not being the most confident of kids, I was convinced that his 21st photo board would be sans Santa photo, but in a strange turn of events, he rocked right up to Santa, spoke very clearly about what he would like, and advised even more clearly how good of a boy he'd been this year. So with a week to go until his 4th birhtday, he managed to leap this huge hurdle that often even the most outgoing children struggle to do. So yay for him, and yay for Kodak moments.

What more to say at this time of year. Peace, Goodwill & Merry Christmas - or will it be Maori Christmas, I think we're having a hangi!

Mothers are like Marbles

Yeah, yeah, I know it's been 6 months since I last blogged it out. I've been busy, too busy for me it would seem, shifting to our brand new home, coping with the increasing demands of a soon to be four year old and a soon to be one year old, and just incase I didn't have enough to trip over already, we've recently added a kitten to the mix.

Named by the boy "Choppa", like the man says "could be worse", could be standing out on the back lawn in my dressing gown shaking the packet of whiskas yelling "here poo face" or "here bum bum" - too rather catchy and popular sayings at 'The Heritage' of late.

Anyway, back to me, I have some lovely friends who also don't have all that much time for themselves (the old them, sans children), however one of my lovely friends organised a girls afternoon yesterday whereby we wined, lunched, dinnered and coffeed the day away, just us, no kids, no dinners to cook, no jammies to find. It was heaven, and yet somehow foreign at the same time.

I promised during our big outing, that I'd start blogging again, I like to read others, so only fair that I give a little bit back to the blog community as it were.

Time in the shower is, apart from the odd mummy lunch, about the only place a mother gets to here herself think, that is if she's smart enough to shower at 10pm when there's no one awake to ask 21 questions while she is in there (smart move). So I got to thinking, one night in my little quite cubical, about what object could be related to being a mother, I decided that mothers were a lot like marbles, here's why:

MOTHERS ARE LIKE MARBLES

We used to be cool and exciting
We take a lot of knocks but keep on rolling
As one we are strong,
but put a whole lot together and you will have a hell of a lot of fun.

Quite like being a mum, don't you think.

Right so that's my theory on the world today - hope you're proud of me 'G' finally getting back on the blog wagon!

Until next time

xx

A mother's guilt

Life's full of catch 22 situations when you're a mum. Damned if you do, damned if you don't. I really think midwives should issue a t-shirt to every new mum on the arrival of her first born.

The boy has started day care recently and while I was hesitant to let him out from under my wing, I am on the other hand delighted to do so for various reasons. However, the floodgates I was so anxiously expecting did open and I am not looking forward to a prolonged battle of teary morning drop offs.

He's the kind of boy who's happy to be where he is once he gets there, and once he's comfortable, he's all in and all go, but the reserved, shy side to him isn't quite as brave as he would like to be and his emotions overwhelm him - not surprisingly since I'm such a cool mummy to hang out with hehehe.

And so Monday's and Tuesday's are met with anticipation and apprehension from the both of us. I love the fact he's learning new things and that he has the opportunity to be independent of his mummy, but there's this horrible knot each morning as I leave him there with waterworks in full flight.

I could google the word guilt, however the Concise Oxford definition would no doubt differ from the actual one a mother would pen if it were she who wrote the dictionary.

I am trying to decide if this little challenge is more for him or for me, and I'm concluding that it is for us both, and I think we'll both be enriched and enlightened once we are over the initial shock of not being so joined at the hip.

Shhhhhh

What is that noise? Oh, yeah, it's nothing. Lil' Miss is playing happily on the floor and the Man has just taken the boy off to Grandmas for the afternoon. Lil' Miss and I are delighting in the not often found company of our own silence.

Ah, no, there it goes, I knew it wouldn't last long - "Mummy, why aren't you picking me up"?, she calls, in cheekily disguised baby language" And so I caved, and here I sit one handed typing or hunting and pecking as we used to call it in fifth form typing.

Once again it's been some time since I sat here and did this, but seeing as the house is relatively tidy, and there's only a short while til my chiropractic appointment, I decided, it was time to open the old lappy up for a bit of a rant.

I can't believe how fast the weeks are rolling around, it's already mid-year and the old casseroles are starting to nourish us regularly now. It's great this hearty winter food, definately better than the rabbit food we feed ourselves in the summer, don't get me wrong, I'm all for a good salad, but night after night trying to use up the same old ingredients, becomes a bit blah.

And isn't it nice to sit down at lunch time and tuck into a bowl of lovely home made soup and toast cut into soldiers, yum. Got to have the soldiers. I remember my Grandad used to break up and put his toast in the soup. Yuck, not my cup of tea, not into soggy bread, but what do you know, as if history repeats itself, the boy has decided he likes his soup crumb ridden also.

Ah winter, ah soup, ah silence. Well, at least I know there'll be a good chunk of two of these things at our house.

The boy's growing up

I knew the day would come, the day when I had to cut the ties and let the boy go off into the big wide world of Kindy or Pre school on his own. Friday, the reality hit when I was faced with a phone call from the local daycare where his name has been on the waiting list pretty much since lil' miss came on the scene (it's a popular place). They phoned to advise me that there was an opening, and the boy was at the top of the list for it - two mornings a week 8.30 - 12.30.

Yesterday we met the office lady and next week is his induction where he and I go along together and meet the teachers and have the grand tour.

We've been preparing him for months to the fact that he'll be going to daycare some time in the near future, and so after around five months of waiting, he's become intrigued at the whole concept which is great as he's been a very shy boy in the past, as short a time ago as three or four months I would never have dreamed it being an easy step for him to make, but now I'm feeling slightly easier about it as he's started to come out of his shell more and more in the short time he's been a big brother.

So how am I feeling? Excited for him, but sad for me all rolled into one. I guess it's a lesser version of the feeling a mum gets when her child goes off to school. I'm happy he'll be off doing something fun and learning with that sponge of his, and I'm also excited to be able to spend some alone time with lil' miss, and of course I'll have another time slot to fit more office work in (yay), but for three and a half years, this little man has been not far from my side, and I get the feeling I'm going to feel like a limb has been cut off for a wee while until I get used to it. Because as much as some days he can drive me up the wall, 99% of the time he's a cool little dude and I really love having him hanging around my feet.

Right, time to harden up. He'll be fine, and so will I, but I'm predicting that for me, the best thing about his new life to come as a big day care boy, will be picking him up and bringing him home!

Motherhood on the world wide web

I've been googling a bit recently. I've offered to make a friends wedding cake in February, I've possibly bitten off more than I can chew, but in the back of my mind is that great kiwi saying "she'll be right mate". I've googled so many wedding cakes for inspiration that I'm almost set on what I can and can't achieve, and luckily for me, the bride to be in question is about as far from bridezilla as you could get, so if the big day comes and I rock on up with a jam roll from the supermarket, she'll probably just hand me a beer and say - "ah well, you tried".

To get away from my new found obsession for googling wedding cakes, I decided to google poems about motherhood instead with the intention of posting one on my blog - hey why not? There were loads of them as you could well imagine, and after much deliberation, I settled on this wee funny about being a mum (well, mom actually)...



You Know Your a Mom When...

1. You count the sprinkles on each kid's cupcake to make sure they're equal.

2. You find yourself cutting your husbands' sandwiches into cute shapes.

3. You can't bear to give away baby clothes - it's so final.

4. You hear your mother's voice coming out of your mouth when you say,
"NOT in your good clothes!"

5. You stop criticizing the way your mother raised you.

6. You hire a sitter because you haven't been out with your husband in ages, then spend half the night checking on the kids.

7. You say at least once a day, "I'm not cut out for this job", but you know you wouldn't trade it for anything

Dear Blog

18th of May, surely not, surely I've written in you since then. Double check. Nope, 18th of May it was. How slack is that, I started off with a hiss and a roar, but now, like my washing pile, you've been left neglected as another hour, day, week flutters by.

I do apologise for not popping in sooner, I hope you've not suffered from boredom during my absence. I certainly haven't been bored. Tired, but not bored.

I have been woken from slumber untold times the last week or two as Lil' Miss has been either teething, growth spurting or sick. She even managed to wake her big bro one night with her 2am antics. She's not much of a crier, more of a 'hey I'm awake and I'd love some company, can you hear me... huh hmm, hello..." kind of a gal. Last night was the best sleep I've had for quite some time. 10pm right through until 3.45am - woop woop! Lucky for everyone else in the family because Mummy - sleep = grumpy monster, and although aside from the fact that I'm not a morning person, the man in particular has learnt to be extra tipey toey around his sleep deprived Mrs.

So Blog, hopefully from that small summary you'll see why I've not been the ideal blogger of late. I hope you'll forgive me and not do funny things with my fonts or other shenanigans in order to teach me a lesson for not being as devoted to you as I intended.

Even though this has been short and sweet, I promise I will write again soon, perhaps a little more next time.

Yours

Jo

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